有冇試過原本開開心心換衫要出街, 點知衫就換咗幾套, 塊鏡前照後照側照上照下照, 照咗幾十輪, 仍然覺得眼前嘅自己非常唔順眼?? 成個衣櫃反轉咁滯, 都仍然摷唔到套啱嘅衫?? 結果搞到發晒猛憎冇晒mood..
今朝就係咁.. 尋根究底, 其實唔係因為啲衫唔靚喎, 而係得一個原因--自己肥囉!! 雖然肥唔係罪過, 但係亦都唔係件好事, 肥得靚就話啫, 如果唔係就真係幾閉翳嘅一回事.. 連自己都接受唔到自己, 著咩衫都覺得唔順眼, 我覺得我已經去到一個急需拯救嘅地步囉..
今朝去拜神, 稟神嘅時候一連串口噏噏, 弊, 竟然稟漏咗保祐我減肥成功!! :(have you ever been put into this situation?? you happily preparing yourself to go out, but after changing a few set of clothings, you looked into yourself in the mirror ten over times - front, back, side, up and down - but still don't think you look any good?? almost taken out all your assets in the closet, and still there is none that is suitable?? and finally, you got grumpy over outfitting yourself and spoilt the mood..
it happened to me this morning.. finding the truth behind it, well, it's not actually that the clothes are not nice, but the main reason to that problem is - i am FAT!! though there isn't anything wrong for being fat, it's really nothing to be proud of indeed.. or maybe i shall say, if i'm fat yet good looking then it's not that bad at all, but the fact is not.. even myself cannot accept myself that i just look so fugly with any clothes, i think i've come to a very critical situation..
went to the temple and prayed to the god just now, i had a long list of prayers, but alas, i just missed out getting myself blessed for a successful trim down!! :(